How many times have I woken in the night?--disturbed because there was enough light to wake me--And, been unable to arrange the shadows in a way that made sense?
How many times have I woken with fear, worried that my father was in trouble?
And how can I be thankful or grateful or in any way understanding when I receive an email informing me when I must move, as if I were a soldier in the army?
How can I be thankful for the shattered nights?
So many shattered nights, and not just on account of this or that email.
Am I to really say or imagine that this is a good life?
As if I were some idiot popularizer of good-feeling and shallow wisdom?
I can taste the bitterness of my isolation and submission,
and there is nothing in that of beauty or reason, or, even, common sense.
No,
I am not used to it,
and,
No,
I don't really believe or accept any of the empty words offered to justify it.
My silence is not assent.
My silent screams are deafening.
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
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